Cosmic Castaway
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Always Know Where You Are - BBMak
It's good to see the sun
And feel this place
This place I never thought would feel like home
And I ran forever
Far away and I
I always thought I'd end up here alone
Somehow
The world has changed and
I've come home
To give you back the things they took from you
And I feel you now
I'm not alone I'll always know where you are
When I see myself I'll always know where you are
Where you are
And I found something
That was always there
Sometimes it's got to hurt before you feel
But now I'm strong and
I won't kneel
Except to thank who's watching over me
Somehow
I feel so strong and I've begun
To be the one I never thought I'd be And I feel you now
I'm not alone I'll always know where you are
When I see myself I'll always know where you are
Where you are
Now, it's all so clear and
I believe
That everything's been opened up to me
And I feel you now
I'm not alone
I always know
I always know where you are
And I feel you now
I'm not alone I'll always know where you are
When I see myself I'll always know where you are
Where you are
Inject Me - Pop Will Eat Itself
I'm the boy without a soul, No hot love, no worldly goal, Inject me, inject me Cut the lights, and shut the doors Use, abuse, take me I'm yours, Inject me, inject me... Sometimes I feel I'm just not real, I can see a blur but I just can't feel my way, My head's in disarray, Can't face today, today; I've no ambition and no direction I drift off-world to avoid detection, My mind's distracted by the light refracted... Disengaged, A.W.O.L., inactive, I'm the boy without a soul, No hot love, no worldly goal, Inject me, inject me... Got to fix this empty head 'Cos life's a bitch and then you're dead, Inject me, inject me... Obscene white light, too bright, too frightening, My friend, my bed's inviting, Time's elastic and passions are plastic In the land of quicksand: the psych fantastic Ha! Ha! Look at me Ma! I'm on top of the world, can you see that far? I can fly as high as the sky, I am sci-fi! You care to say, "Hi!"...I say bye-bye My positronic ray will blast the day away And keep you all at bay. So be warned! I'm surfin' the dead zone, In the twilight, unknown, Singin' my own imaginary songs to cruise along to. A sex goddess, all mine, to belong to... You can play it for her, you can play it for me, A dream melody to resurrect me... I'm the boy without a soul, No hot love, no worldly goal, Inject me, inject me... Cut the lights, and shut the doors, Use, abuse, take me I'm yours, Inject me, inject me..
Satellite - Depeche Mode
Now hear this my friends I'll never be the same again Gonna lock myself in a cold black room Gonna shadow myself in a veil of gloom I will function, operate I will be a satellite of hate Driven to this point by a chain of events Each one pushed me nearer the edge Gonna send my message through to you And you'll receive the signal too I will function, operate I will be a satellite of hate Higher Disillusioned, I was disenchanted Forgot the love that had been implanted Heard the lies and I felt the cold It broke my heart and I lost control Now I'm a satellite of a free state I'm a satellite of hate A satellite of hate
I Do Not Want This - Nine Inch Nails
I'm losing ground you know how this world can beat you down and I'm made of clay I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way I'm always falling down the same hill bamboo puncturing this skin and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in 2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this and don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel you don't know just how I feel I stay inside my bed I have lived so many lives all in my head and don't tell me that you care there really isn't anything now, is there? you would know, wouldn't you? you extend your hand to those who suffer to those who know what it really feels like to those who've had a taste like that means something and oh so sick I am and maybe I don't have a choice and maybe that is all I have and maybe this is a cry for help I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this I do not want this and don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel don't you tell me how I feel you don't know just how I feel I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters I want to know everything I want to be everywhere I want to fuck everyone in the world I want to do something that matters
But It Rained - Parikrama
Wrapped in a polythene, tucked away safe in my mind
a little goodbye, maybe, or just a passing smile The birds fly away to the sky still searching for home
a bunch of paper flowers, or a little boy left all alone
Can somebody hear me, I'm screaming from so far away
morning who'll calm you, the evening's eclipsed again Well does life get any better
more yesterdays than todays?
How I thought the sun would shine tomorrow
But it rained... They justified the cause for which Daddy might give up his life
It's been so long, so long a time but still I miss Daddy at night
The ache is long gone but the never keeps tearing along
the waters in the seas are high, and all the sand castles have drowned Well does life get any better
more yesterdays than todays?
How I thought the sun would shine tomorrow
But it rained...
Anywhere Out of the World - Dead Can Dance
We scaled the face of reason To find at least one sign That could reveal the true dimensions Of life lest we forget And maybe it's easier to withdraw from life With all of it's misery and wretched lies Away from harm We lay by cool still waters And gazed into the sun And like the moth's great imperfection Succumbed to her fatal charm Any maybe it's me who dreams of requited love The victim of fools who watch and stand in line Away from harm In our vain pursuit of life for one's own end Will this crooked path ever cease to end?
Cosmic Castaway - Electrasy
Lose my head to the chemical freeway
Coming up on overload
In a mystic new dimension
Purify and sanctify me
What? So I’m in no end game
Move my piece right off the board
Losing sure is easy, so I am no more
But I’m not broken In my dream I win
In here I’m nothing A Cosmic Castaway
In my head I’m a chemical dreamer
Speed up to burn out mode
Coming up in the 5th dimension
Beautify, don’t crucify me’ yeah
So I need no mind game poisoning my lonely soul
Losing sure is easy, so I am no more
But I’m not broken In my dream I win
And I take over Cuz I’m no loser
And I’m in and you’re not Bad dreams don’t stop
But I’m all screwed up A Cosmic Castaway
A Cosmic Castaway A Cosmic Castaway
And I want but have not
Bad dreams Lost thoughts
In here with no pain You hurt me again
And I want but have none
I should be the alien
But here I’m no one A Cosmic Castaway
A Cosmic Castaway A Cosmic Castaway
A Cosmic Castaway
Moon & the Sky (JC's Heaven Scent Radio Mix ) - Erasure
All of a sudden it's gone
Too late to wish a friend farewell
Heard the sea in a shell
Said we would meet in other worlds
See how the moon, she cries
Cool how the tears fill up the sky as snow
Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky
Hold your head in my hand
A taste, a wish, a parting sigh
Takes the boat across the water
Heaves a gentle sigh
See how the moon, she cries
Cool how the tears fill up the sky as snow
Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky All of a sudden it's gone
Too late to wish a friend farewell
Heard the sea in a shell
Said we would meet in other worlds
See how the moon, she cries
Cool how the tears fill up the sky as snow
Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky Gonna touch the sky Gonna reach high Gonna put my hand up reach and touch the sky
Painted Black - Gob
I see a red door And I want it painted black No colors anymore I want them to turn black I see the girls walk by Dressed in their summer clothes I have to turn my head Until my darkness goes I see a line of cars And they're all painted black With flowers and my love Both never to come back I see people turn their heads And quickly look away Like a newborn baby It just happens every day I look inside myself See my heart is back I see my red door I must have it painted black Maybe then I'll fade away And not have to face the facts It's not easy facing up When your whole world is black No more will my green sea Go turn a deeper blue I could not foresee This thing happening to you. If I look hard enough Into the setting sun, My love will laugh with me Before the morning comes I see a red door And I want it painted black No colors anymore I want them to turn black I see the girls walk by Dressed in their summer clothes I have to turn my head Until my darkness goes I want to see it painted Painted black Black as night Black as coal I want to see the sun Blotted out from the sky I want to see it painted Painted, painted Painted black, yeah
Hurt - Johnny Cash
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
Hurt - Luna Sea
Mitasarenai nara Kowashite shimae Subete wo
Crockett's Theme - Jan Hammer
Instrumental
Mad World - Gary Jules
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles It's a very very
Mad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take
When people run in circles It's a very very
Mad world, mad world
Enlargen your world
Watch Me Bleed - Tears for Fears
Heaven comes to he who waits
But I know I'm getting nowhere
And all the deeds of yesterday
Have really helped to pave my way
Though there's no one near me now
How come everyone can touch me?
You see the torture on my brow
Relates to neither here nor now
Watch me bleed
Bleed forever Watch me bleed Bleed forever
Although my face is straight, it lies
My body feels the Pain and cries
Here the table is not bare
I am full but feeling empty
For all the warmth it feels so cold
For one so young I feel so old
Watch me bleed
Bleed forever Watch me bleed Bleed forever
It's not allowed to be unkind
But still the hate lives in my mind
I'll make no noise
I'll hide my pain
I'll close my eyes
I won't complain
I'll lie right back and take the blame
And try to tell myself I'm living
And when it's all been said or done
Where do I go?
Where do I run?
What's left of me or anyone When we've denied the hurting? And when it's all been said or done
Where do I go?
Where do I run?
What's left of me or anyone When we've denied the hurting? Watch me bleed
Bleed forever Watch me bleed Bleed forever And all the deeds of yesterday
Have really helped to pave my way
Alone - Colin Newman (This Mortal Coil)
Instrumental
It's My turn to Fly - The Urge
It’s my turn to fly
I’m proving ground tonight
Try to be the best that I can
Grown to be a man
Only human can understand
I fill my lungs with fear and I exhale!
It’s my turn to fly
Father be with me tonight
I’m right on target (keep the dream alive)
It’s my turn to fly
Gotta prove it tonight
Deep in 3043’ the refugees survived
The whole of humanity lies in my hand
Give me the chance tonight
I’ll prove to you what’s in my eyes
Bring us to victory
Our dreams become reality
It’s my turn to fly
Father be with me tonight
I’m right on target (keep the dream alive)
It’s my turn to fly
Gotta prove it tonight It’s my turn to fly
Father be with me tonight
I’m right on target (keep the dream alive)
It’s my turn to fly
Gotta prove it tonight Let's do it together!